WITH BINOCULARS WE CAN SEE YOU
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Posted:Apr 10, 2009 9:58 am
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This was the anonymous note put through my door last weekend. As I am a woman living alone with my I consider this as a threatening thing. I informed the police so they had it on record in case of repercussions. I shall be cautiously and politely approaching a couple of neighbours who live in direct line of my house.
I live in the middle of the countryside in a group of 6 houses. Beyond these few houses the binoculars would have to be pretty strong to see me in my home. I always close my curtains at dusk before night.
I didnt wish the police to investigate it because of the inevitable retaliation that it would provoke. I have been harassed over a period of years by neighbours. I have been called names, labelled, insulted and verbally abused and my property damaged by them because I stood up for myself and my property over various issues as indeed any male would have done. The absence of a male resident has proven to be a serious problem. You have no idea how much of a protection males give you and your family until you are fronting a family alone as a woman. This is a very male dominated rural outback type situation here. The men think they can get away with whatever they please.
The attitudes are very closed, small and parochial here. Everything is noted...if you dont mow your lawn the required number of times... etc.etc.etc. If you dont maintain your property to the required standards...If you dont have the material assets considered necessary...If you dont do what they consider as "normal"...I live next door to Hyacinth Bouquet! Its horrendous! Its the sort of place where if they saw you walking around your garden with a glass of wine in your hand you could be labelled an alcoholic!
Im blogging about this cos I believe silence about issues like this just allows bullies to get away with it...wherever they exist. The extent of bullying in our society relies on silence and intimidation of the bullied. No sooner had I sorted out the continual bullying of my for BEING A REDHEAD on the bus he takes to school each day then this note arrived through my door.
I now feel under scrutiny by unknown and malicious persons within my own house. Not a nice feeling.
As I have very few men visit from the site (see my blog Fuckbuddy Wanted) I cant think that has caused this current situation. But last year several black men (!!!!!!!) did come to my house and no doubt the cars outside my house would have been noted and the fact the men were black would have caused the neighbours some problems. Despite us all being very pc about race in this country today, I, being white and middleclass know precisely how deep racism in this country has been in the latter half of the 20th century and still is amongst certain classes and types of people...I live in a completely white area. A series of different men would also cause them just as much a problem.
I am very discrete in what I do and usually go out to London now. I do dress up and dance in what I thought was the privacy of my own home in outfits I go to swinging venues in. It could be time to get some net curtains!
Notes from the countryside...if you are thinking of moving to it bear in mind its a very very old fashioned and cripplingly conservative place and all the hedges have eyes and ears!! Its rural bliss except for the attitudes...
Maybe I need to hold a Black n White swingers party with a big marquee in my field this summer! YESSSSSSSSSSS!
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Posted:Apr 9, 2009 5:06 am
Last Updated:May 13, 2009 3:59 pm
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I met this girl on Monday
Took her for a drink on Tuesday
We were making love by Wednesday
And on Thursday and Friday and Saturday
And we chilled on Sunday...
These lyrics of Craig Davids make me think of myself...and the woman I am...the woman I was as I used to have 3 day lovemaking sessions with men...and the sexy man Craig David probably is in my mind..I wouldnt chuck him out of bed!
I also love music and singing and dancing ...so this week I have decided that I will investigate having some singing lessons to see whether I have a decent voice worth developing...I do know I have a vocal range and a powerful voice...
I have learned from my experiences online that I have a distinctive posh sexy voice possibly somewhat like Joanna Lumleys, as almost unanimously the men Ive met have told me that and they all love it and find it one of the seductive attractions of speaking to me!
I am finding that I need a new avenue for expression in my career and life now since I have been in the swinging scene...I am much more sociable, communicative, self confident, and assured in my physicality, self image, femininity and opinions since I have been having this type of experience...I need to translate that into concrete life changing experiences with likeminded people...and to earn more money from it in a new career path!
If anyone can help in those directions do let me know...
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Pussy Love
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Posted:Apr 9, 2009 4:10 am
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2012 10:19 am
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If I dont find a man soon im in danger of having to adopt some more cats...
My and I adopted a rescue cat last autumn...we hadnt had any pets up till then. Hes a beautiful young male 2 year old neutered ginger tom..he kept his balls until he was picked up by Cat Protection last year so has some of the truly male characteristics of tom cats including hunting instinct, staying out at night several times a week even in subzero temperatures, strong built frame, that butch Top Cat look and bravery without the downsides of smell and squirting!!
Well this is his first Spring in the countryside wonderland (he was picked up in London) thats now his home and he is in his pussy element! ... He has fields to hunt in...he catches mice and shrews (are they endangered?) to play with every day...This mornings tally is one shrew, one mouse and one rock lizard!! Needless to say we dont get birds in the garden anymore! He is climbing talls trees and balancing precariously in the branches with his long prehensile tail and leaping across high fences with an extraordinary athleticism Ive never seen in other cats! He reminds me of an Olympic hurdler how he takes off at the very last minute and then springs upwards vertically with great ease...all four legs neatly in propulsion...He is racing around his garden and field up and down with pussy pleasure...just stopping occasionally for a purr and stroke....now thats feline happiness!
It wasnt until my and I got a cat that it became obvious to me how much love was missing from both our lives...We appear to have a lot of spare unfulfilled love as both of us are overwhelmingly adoring of our cat..We are both totally besotted with our ginger boy and its amazing the strength of emotion we have for him...We concern ourselves with his wellbeing 24 seven...The cat has responded to the love in various ways...He is very protective of us both...He misses my when hes absent...He breaks into a purr just at the sight of my ...He lavishes us with his affection and attention...He looks out for us at the windows...Raising himself up on his hind legs with front paws in a begging position like a meercat to say Where are you going? He jumps onto the car as soon as we arrive...He has found his pussy voice so responds when spoken to... He lets my , who he sleeps with, pull him around fairly brusquely and kisses him...He has a particularly soft fluffy tummy and he lets us kiss it as he sleeps totally relaxed extended to his full length with a smile on his face and his paws held up behind his head ...
Its revealed to me exactly how much we both needed more people to love in our lives but in the absence of those I suppose we will have to have more animals...Im interested in keeping chickens especially those pretty breeds as we did have a chicken once who wandered in one day and stayed for 6 months roosting at night in the trees like the pheasants do which we called Chicken Nugget and who was very good company...chickens are incredibly intelligent and sociable for birds!
I dont know how many cats/animals yet will fill the gap but i really dont wish to become one of those women who live alone with so many cats or animals that they make the house smell or the sofa is covered with cat hairs when you sit down on it..or who fills her life up with animals cos shes lonely...
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Gardeners Question Time
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Posted:Apr 2, 2009 1:34 pm
Last Updated:Apr 10, 2009 11:39 am
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I am an experienced gardener working professionally for private in Kent and East Sussex for the last 5 years. Far too glamourous to be a gardener so everyone tells me who meets me!!
Its been a glorious Spring day and I am just waiting to go to take a bath having been out working. I wondered if any of you had any gardening queries now that the season has started....I am very knowledgeable and passionate about plants and gardening practices. Feel free to make use of my expertise....Ask me anything you need to know...
I live outside a picture postcard Kent village and have a third of an acre of Wealden garden of my own to tend. Its quite a lot of mowing!! I have the most amazing views of open and uninhabited countryside around my house.
As you venture out into your gardens now the weather is warm and sunny I expect you will be thinking about tidying the borders up and cutting back the shrubs....Wait to prune your spring and summer flowering shrubs until after they have flowered otherwise you will be cutting off your flowers now. There will be lots of new perennials just coming up in the ground...If you wish to make more plants its a good time to lift them and divide them...this will invigorate them and make many new plants which will all flower this summer...
Camellias are in glorious flower now...if your plants have yellow leaves this means they are short of iron...buy an ericaceous feed for them...Camellias are acid lovers and turn yellow when there is too much lime in the soil. If they do not have many flowers it could mean they have run short of water during last summer..
The daffodils are looking fabulous, once they are over dead head them, give them a general purpose feed like Blood Fish and Bone and then leave their leaves to die back naturally...do not cut them off or tie them up for at least 6 weeks. The plants need to replenish themselves.
Its a good time to lift and divide clumps of snowdrops and replant whilst in the green. Infact all planting of new trees and large shrubs should be completed before May as we run short of rain by then. Anything planted next month will need a lot of continual watering care over the summer.
Dont plant out tender annuals until May and all chance of night time frosts have passed.
Happy gardening!
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QUALITY ONLY
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Posted:Apr 2, 2009 3:28 am
Last Updated:Dec 27, 2009 2:07 pm
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You are black educated SINGLE between 26 and 48 horny sexually experienced to a high degree, fit, fairly good looking, LOVE giving oral AND you are good at it, know how to use your fingers to stimulate my G spot (and even make a woman squirt) have a thick 8/9/10+ cock. You are humourous, confident, positive, intelligent, chatty, reliable, have time in your busy schedule for people, able to accommodate and drive, demonstrate your wish to be friends with me, not just a one off shag and go on proper dates with women here...have no hang ups or double standards about women who have sex and treat them with the utmost respect and honesty...you waste noones time not even for a moment by unclear or dishonest communication in any form...You understand that chemistry, attraction and spending time by phone developing it are important for good sex between us and you will persue that whatever it takes...You also realise that we will be keeping in touch after our intial meeting...
NOW THATS THE QUALITY I AM SEEKING AND I OFFER THOSE STANDARDS IN PERSONAL QUALITY ASWELL
If you think that I am being unrealistic in my needs I can assure you I am not... I have found a number of men here who fit and exceed these criteria and they are the ones over the past two years who have become my friends in real life and who you can read about as they feature positively in my blogs...
WE CAN TAKE THIS TO A HIGHER LEVEL TOGETHER
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I am a Credit Muncher..
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Posted:Mar 25, 2009 3:51 am
Last Updated:Mar 31, 2009 1:49 am
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I dont like waste..its been in my upbringing not to waste anything at all...my mother still uses her post war utility broom circa 1950 made of real badger bristles!! Built to sweep for 60 years plus! She still makes her steamed puddings in the only style of saucepan available when she married ...utility green metal..
Recycling is not new to me...I have always practiced it as common sense denote. Waste not want not.
Customising and recycling clothes was the height of fashion when I was a ...Jumble sale finds were exceptionally chic...Victorian nightdresses and dresses particularly sought after...vintage clothing easily found for pennies and by the sackfull...I wore real fur coats bought second hand..My friends and I all cut up jeans and made jeans skirts and jeans bags out of them...We made belts and bags out of scraps of suede and patchwork quilts out of remnants of special fabrics...we customised our jeans with fabrics buttons and ribbons to make individualised styles...the more unique your style the better..
I loved those less self conscious less money orientated days of my early adulthood...when the world of marketing hadnt really taken off and engulfed us all...when the consumer was relatively innocent and free and it was all about showing a rebellious streak to conventional adult-run hide-bound society...in retrospect it seems like an extension of my childhood...which was blissfully unregulated and I was allowed to run freeeeeee to explore!! I went to Europe for the first time on holiday alone and abroad when I was 16 with two other female school friends on a two week backpacking holiday in France, phoned my parents to tell them I was staying longer and came back after 6 weeks having made my own slender resources and fun stretch! I am sure that type of freedom has contributed to my personality today in a very positive way...We were all into 'experiences' not the acquisitions!
So back to the blog...
I have received thousands of mails since I arrived on the site...its impossible to reply to everyone. I am very precise now in the type of males im looking for sexually. Black and educated. So recently Ive set to thinking I would like to harness all the goodwill and potential of many of those males who write to me...I think its a waste not to do so if the men are willing to do that.
Im looking for friends of all sorts here...sexual and nonsexual and to extend my social network. There are males with similar thinking here aswell. Not everyone is interested purely in the sex alone or sex with just anyone. I am likely to reply to men white and black who demonstrate in their first mail to me that they have something more than sex to offer me and show me their personalities...Men with an interesting hobby or weekend pursuit for example who would like to take me along to try it out I would really welcome...no trainspotting please! Although I am a bit of a secret twitcher and used to ramble across much of the UK! I like physical activities a lot!
Infact after two years on the site I am definitely looking for like-minded people who could go out on interesting dates...I have had so many offers of sex its just not that appealing by itself to me anymore...I can get sex when I want it...I go to swinging parties. We cant all be attracted physically to each other but there are definitely men on the site who I could have a great laugh with and enjoy each others company...I dont string anyone along...I tell it how it is..
I am looking for memorable life experiences again!
I am also welcoming comments on my blogs now...
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The Ultimate Blow Job
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Posted:Mar 24, 2009 7:50 am
Last Updated:Nov 26, 2009 10:30 am
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I love to suck cock and it shows! I am sometimes called Oral Goddess and ive been known to give very very experienced lovers who have had hundreds of blowjobs in their lives..."one of the best if not the best oral sex of my life"...that praise really blew my mind and made me feel so proud! It also made me feel supremely confident that I must be doing something right in the fellatio department! Other men have also reiterated that and been considerably impressed with my skills...
I also get a lot of feedback from men ...The usual comment is that its hard to find a good blowjob or a woman who knows how to do one properly. Men it seems these days struggle to cum from bjs whereas when i started having sex men always came through them. The reasons for poor bjs are usually quoted as when the woman shows little enthusiasm in doing it...or teeth get involved...or only suck the head and ignore the rest of the cock...or lack of knowledge...too soft or too rough...or just bobbing up and down aimlessly on the cock like theyve seen in porn...
Well my blowjobs are very very sensual, they go on for a long long time if the guy is really into what Im doing and I can feel his excitement building as i go...if his cock isnt interested in what I am doing then I lose interest too...each blowjob is individual and I have different levels of instinctive interest in sucking a guys cock...some cocks just have to be sucked and sucked! I love taking him to the ripe to burst stage and I can feel his cum rising in the shaft and taste his precum and his knob is purple and full and smooth and shiny and it just needs a few more strokes and sucks with my mouth and throat to take him over the edge and then I can feel him straining to get his cock inside of me but I just keep on sucking him and follow his cock until Ive decided the time is ready! He starts to feel weak and desperate at that point..and the cum is rising hard by then but not quite!
Ive decided cock sucking doesnt really start until the saliva flows out of my mouth and down his cock and my hands and mouth just slide all over his cock, balls and arse...I love to feel his drenched dripping wet cock slide deliciously all over my face and I bury myself in his arse as I upend him to lick and lick...I like to take total control of him and feel him losing himself in sensation...giving himself over to me...I move my mouth with his body...and keep my control over him...he knows who is in charge of his pleasure...
Its absolutely essential for a good blowjob in my opinion for me to be able to lose myself in cocksucking euphoria, to suspend my mouths gag reflex through it and deep throat the guy! Dont eat beforehand!! I have big lips and this helps give good blowjobs and I have a long tongue and a big mouth all of which is useful...I make love to the cock...Licking its length from arse hole to head, sucking, kissing, wet masturbating with very wet gentle rhythmic movements... I can take 7" cocks whole in my mouth down to the base and guys love those deep moments of complete oral sensation...usually i take them to the back of my throat where its extremely pleasurable to repeatedly hit the soft back of my throat..and I can feel their load rising during that....
Guys shouldnt hold my head or move much during blowjobs...let the woman do the work and control how much she takes down unless its slight movements to readjust her technique and give her your individual rhythm...Ive found licking uncircumsized cocks on the skin where the head joins the shaft is a particuarly sensitive area and gives a lot of pleasure...Somehow I think circumcision makes cocks less sensitive to oral and harder to cum from it...so I am told..
During completely wild and unrestrained oral theres a strange sensation in the back of my mouth of sexual excitement! And I think my throat opens up more then... I dont know if thats normal but my mouth on one occasion has produced cum! A substance which was white in colour odourless (and it definitely wasnt just very spume-like saliva or food or anything related to normal activities) and came out of my mouth in many strands...very strange!! My lover had never seen anything like it nor had I!!!! This was some of the best oral of his life!
I like men to cum in my mouth...especially if my tongue is stuck out to receive it...many black guys have sweet tasting cum if they dont smoke..infact I like men to whip off the condom to ensure they shoot their load in my mouth...or over my face, neck, tits..
I think guys could help women to give better oral by not being polite and just tell her how to do it...I would find that a turn on to know I was doing exactly what my man wants to feel...and seeing the results but then men say they like women to do whatever they want!
Its immensely satisfying to bring a guy to orgasm from oral alone..
I am an orally fixated woman!
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Chocol8 Fever
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Posted:Mar 23, 2009 4:27 am
Last Updated:Jan 12, 2020 11:23 am
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Im buzzing again this morning...just been out to my fav place to party with all my lovely friends, black men and their lovers!
OMG how to describe the bounty of black men ...testosterone fuelled pussy and woman loving, naturally and sensually ballistic males..meant for me!
To see what Ive seen this weekend would send anyone into a state of mental exuberance...a sheer throng of black sexual frenzy! Black cock bonanza!
We danced and fucked until dawn and Mothering Sunday started with a bang! The corridor at 2 am at the party is a sea of male testosterone, densely filling the air and every glance and look is hunting and sexually enquiring...where one glance of desire speaks volumes and no subliminal message missed... black lust looking for action...Its a very special place and I feel so fortunate to have found this place and the people who go there extremely special to me aswell...A unique experience..an experience I wish to relive over and over!
The next day I feel like a steam roller has been over me. Every part of my body inside and out has been massaged, pummelled, stroked and my skin stimulated from head to toe...just what i needed! Touch is really important to me and I dont get enough of it!! I remember balancing precariously on my 5 inch heels on the corner edge of the bath, crouched down with my arse in the air being fucked by one of my favourite men and fucking him back hard! I think the side panel of the bath fell off! Even M was surprised by my athletic flexibility!
As I am an experienced swinger now I have been struck by a few things which would help improve the party experience:
The sheer numbers of men all get a bit lost in the perpetual coming and going round the house...I can see someone briefly in passing at the start of the evening when everything is social and sedate before about 1 am and then never see them again all nite! I miss men who I think I would have liked to play with!
I think it would be a good idea to have a type of brief introductory session after the club lets noone else in, on the dancefloor area just so everyone can get a good look at each other and mark their cards...This could also be an opportunity to make sure the men have condoms or buy them...so many men this weekend had none with them...why do they come to swinging parties with no condoms??? ..Condoms are free from GUM clinics and can be asked for without an appointment...
I have been having disappointments in as much as the men ive met and fancied at parties recently turn out to be inexperienced in swinging environments and cant perform or cant perform in public..I have usually spent a lot of time chatting, flirting, kissing, dancing and giving them a b/j before it becomes apparent that they cant keep an erection ...I have then also lost the opportunity of finding a man who can fuck me properly...
Id like to avoid this happening...If at parties we could have badges to say various facts about ourselves it would help as a base line ...they would be optional..but very helpful in identifying and choosing sexual partners with the same levels of experience, skills, sexual preferences, and needs for the nite...
For example mine would read:
Marianne
bisexual
non smokers only (Ive decided I cant kiss smokers!)
experienced swinger
MF MMF FFM MMMMF MMFF
Sexual Health Status checked
8+ thick dick required
I would welcome this initiative. As an experienced swinger I want to secure a certain level of sexual experience, pleasure and have requirements to satisfy and Im getting more selective not less.
Having given so many B/Js this weekend I am also thinking about my sexual health with regards to oral sex...My throat is sore now. I cant give B/Js with a condom on. Men rarely give oral at parties due to their concerns about womens sexual health and cleanliness after having sex with other men....I am asking myself whether I need to do the same...Men rarely kiss women at parties incase they have been sucking other mens cocks...
I wonder if its time for us all as swingers to take further measures to ensure our sexual safety in a party context by asking participants to prove they have been to have a sexual health check up..and if not then suggest they do so...I am pretty sure just the advice would provoke many to do so and GUM clinics are totally confidential and dont notify the persons GP..They also provide free condoms in all sizes and lube upon request...Afterall in a one on one situation there would be at least some conversation at some early point about the participants sexual health and practices.
I am also aware that the men are not washing their hands after fingering other women...and they go round fingering as many as possible at swinging clubs...Someone tried to stick some very unclean smelling fingers in my mouth while i was fucking someone else and I quickly moved my mouth away...this is something that really needs to be addressed as sexual diseases and everyday germs can be spread so easily by unwashed hands...womens pussies are particularly vulnerable to infections..and I dont want any unclean fingers in my pussy or mouth...
We all take some level of personal and collective risk in swinging about sexually transmitted diseases...and each of us swinging responsibly means we can all continue to do so...As we are sometimes sharing sexual partners, one std would create a very difficult situation for many and possibly the sexual demise in the group of the one who spread it unknowingly around...We dont want bad experiences that would deter us from having fun and so I believe some further thought should be given to sexual health aspects at parties..
I hope H and T the party organisers may take note of some of these suggestions ...
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The Great Escape...
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Posted:Mar 19, 2009 3:23 am
Last Updated:Mar 21, 2009 4:34 am
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Timetable: 2016
Destination: Warm Climate...Italy/Caribbean
Finance: In place
Purpose: As much Fun as I can Find
Do you wanna come too?
I am lucky...my life hasnt been comfortable in the past decade. I am not cosily tucked up in a settled commited relationship with loads of dependents and responsibilities and lots of material comforts. I am ready to pack. I have had no moments of complacency, no time for boredom, no rest. I have had plenty of moments of defeat. I have striven continuously to make my sons life as good as possible. He has grown into a mature, funny, individual, handsome and intellectually sophisticated boy ...A chip off my block..and yes objectively I can categorically say hes the type of person I like.
I have been brought to appreciate every thing that anyone gave me in terms of friendship, kindness, time, interest, fun and help. Friends and family are the key to a happy life..
Materialism has never floated my boat..thankgoodness! I do own my home and that will provide my passport away.. I am very much into nature and derive massive pleasure from working with it and being surrounded by its beauty...I live in a very beautiful place at present...with panoramic views and a forest and a family of white barn owls which feed over the field at dusk...thats a magical sight!
My life has shown me what I truly am..the stuff I am made of..what I dont have I dont need..the people who really matter..and what I will need in the future for my happiness...when I emigrate..
The list of things is very small...but integral
A man
A swimming pool
A warm climate
Friends
Cat
Chickens
An Olive Grove
My will be at Uni and visit with his friends in the holidays ...
I am having a full-on midlife opportunity! If I had the funds Id have a pink sports car!!!
Sorted!
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Sexploration
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Posted:Mar 18, 2009 4:12 am
Last Updated:Mar 23, 2009 5:24 am
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I realise now I am on a sexual journey of great importance...I came here to find a boyfriend and to go out on dates to dance on a Saturday night...modest ambitions considering Ive had a lifetime of boyfriends and no problem finding men whereever I went and Im a sociable nice person...But through circumstances I had a lot of celibacy in the previous decade and a lot of emotional loneliness...both debilitating in their own rights..Its a quandary.
I am sexualising myself now through having casual sex without emotional input. It concentrates my focus on the sex of the sexual experience and not my emotional desires for the man which confuse or alter and enhance my sexual responses...Casual sex has its own limitations usually being introductory and transitory in nature. Not something I would have chosen to happen as I recognised indepth sexual experiences provide better sex!! I am also a person who likes the same people for a long time as friends not continually meeting new ones...Sex trains you...its very powerful...theres a sexual landscape within us all that we can explore...If you have the courage to set off on the path...
Sex today is very different to my previous phase of sexual promiscuity prior to my marriage...I am also on a refresher course!
The number of sexual partners I have met here does have its advantages...I couldnt have learned so much about men and their sexuality and needs with just a few...And in turn myself and my own ...Ive had a full investigation and research!
Ive been sexualised to a level that Ive never experienced and still have further to go and Ive given sex a top priority for the first time in my life .. I am hornier than ever before..I play with myself more..I love to watch in the mirror my pussy juice up, drip, the lips swell, the pussy change shape colour and pout and its preclimax ripeness before contracting with orgasm as I play with myself...I feel real sexual frustration if I dont get my sex drive satisfied regularly... I am sexually confident and personally and physically confident in a way which I would never have been able to imagine..I am cocksure woman as one of my recent lovers described it!! And he finds that essential in a lover! Hes not alone many men have said that about the type of women they like...Men seem to want women to at least meet them sexually or infact supercede them in their sexual skills and needs...Men having competitive and ambitious natures...and they want a woman to really want them not just have it cos they think they have to...a courtesy fuck!
When people describe sex as "Only sex" I think NO its not only sex you are devalueing it...as infact I think we tend to do so in our culture in many strange ways for something so important and crucial emotionally and personally to many of us.. From those who have it, to those who want it, to those who cant get it and to those who are happy to have sex with only themselves...
I have gone through a mental sexual barrier so deep and ingrained I didnt even know it was there! Having being raised as a girl Ive denied the deepest areas of sexual need and suppressed my libido without knowing it...a full acceptance of ones sexual needs and acting upon it as a female is difficult...culturally it was censored...and despite my having a broad sexual experience it was still there somewhere in my psyche...As a young I recall laying in my cot and touching myself and feeling I had to hide that from everyone especially my parents...even from that age I was socialised..
Sex was never mentioned as a topic in my house and my parents never kissed infront of me or infact showed physical closeness to each other..not infront of the generation ...I was naturally physical as a young person almost tom boyish and so having sex with boys was a natural thing to do for me...if it feels good do it...and a search for emotional closeness in retrospect..I also sought female equality through sex with boys...
My father was horrified by my total lack of discretion or guilt or shame and called me a brazen ! The conditioning obviously wasnt working! As both my Mum and Dad were pretty flirtatious energised and horny in their own rights..I think it was in my DNA!!!!!
I then went to live in Southern Italy where my true sexual nature started to find real expression in the sensual land of love! Amore mio!
I recall going to see an Emmanuelle film featuring the delicious sexual Sylvia Kristal with my Italian boyfriend in Reggio Calabria and when I returned to his house bent over the bath to wash and then had my first real orgasms with my boyfriend!
Italia ti amo!
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My Conversion....
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Posted:Mar 13, 2009 2:36 am
Last Updated:Mar 21, 2009 4:36 am
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In 2007 I had a sexual revolution...not only meeting for NSA sex for the first time, becoming bisexual in the summer then being converted to black sex and adoring black men...By the winter I was a swinger...
My conversion to black men has been spiritual and sexual and complete...I feel an emotional connection and a reflection of my self which I know will lead to an enduring love one day with the right person and a playfullness and humour between black men and I that I will need for love to grow healthily ...I am looking for a black boyfriend now...I need a lover who is on the same passion wavelength as me...
In the late summer of 2007 I overcame my initial fears about the huge cock sizes of black guys, the sight of which had intimidated me when I joined in Jan 2007...I tried one black lover and was intrigued...I tried two more beautiful Nigerian men and I was hooked...and have never looked back!
Suddenly there were men who are totally sensual in approach from their personalities, lifestyle, grooming, clothes, attitude to women, positivity, energy, kindess, enjoyment of life, fun, athleticism, educated, professionalism and sexuality...the whole package! And sex bombs!!!! I hadnt met men like that since I lived in Italy and black men now supercede Italians in my mind...
Atuanya was the first Nigerian guy Id ever met in my life...We are still good friends today...An accountant, public school educated, sophisticated, fun, stylish, sweet natured, extremely handsome, good company and 6ft 8" tall with a 10 1/2" cock! I was anxious and cautious but he patiently dispelled my fears...
We arranged to meet at Madame Tussauds...Id only been on the site 8 months so I felt uneasy about it all still...I remember he had mailed me when I first joined and I had thought he looked like a model he wont be interested in me! He arrived in a silver mercedes convertible with the top down as it was a hot night and I thought as I got in the car what am I doing here? He looked gorgeous and quickly made me feel comfortable...Was reassuring, charming and kind...We had chatted a lot in advance of our date...
By the time we arrived at his flat in Camden I felt at ease and safe...He went to open the door and the key broke in the lock!! Within seconds he had gone to find a ladder...now Atuanya lived on the second floor! I later discovered he had gone to the back of the flats with a borrowed insufficiently long ladder and had climbed up to his kitchen fanlight window hauled his 6ft 8" body up through the a tiny window and managed to get in over the sink ...thank goodness I didnt watch it, as it was an incredibly dangerous thing to do alone...With noone steadying the ladder at the bottom...He told me he was determined to make our date go well!
I was impressed again! We had a lovely romantic evening together and the sex was great aswell. I must say that guys with very large cocks of this type that some women refuse to fuck really do feel frustrated that they cant do positions such as with legs behind the head ever and my friend also cant necessarily find women who can take all of him...It can be a disadvantage!
He was absolutely beautiful naked physically to look at and I stood mesmerised at him as he showered...he looked like a male version of Grace Jones, statuesque, muscularly toned and very black with a huge cock and he gave me one of the best erotic visual moments of my life! Fortunately I have pics of him to keep for ever...
Weve kept in touch for the last year and a half and despite not being on the site anymore hes still a dear friend of mine and in my mind and thoughts...
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R u crazy..Plse Mari I wld h8 2 chat less 2 u for 4 months..Sorry Wont Have It
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Posted:Mar 10, 2009 9:36 am
Last Updated:Jun 5, 2009 7:20 am
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UPDATE MAY 2009: This man really was extremely compatible with me and certainly didnt fabricate the chemistry we had...Time itself has proven to me the uniqueness of our friendship on this site and the depths of it...When in my personal moments of contemplation, as the months progress, I often recall the warmth and support he offered me and the level upon which he related to me ...Its such a shame he turned out to be a badun..
FEBRUARY 2008: Mr Douglas (not his real name) didnt wish to cool it between us when I suggested it after 4 months of chatting incessantly nite and day, everytime I logged on he was requesting to chat to me instantly...and his almost stalkerish fascination with me, when I explained I was getting emotionally attached to him...He told me not to worry (over and again) we were going to be allright sweeti...
It is always assumed its the woman who seeks the emotional attachment...In my case I know I run a mile as soon as I feel an emotional pull kick in. I was a practised NSA person by the time I met the man who put a spoke in my wheel. I was comfortable with friendly sex without emotional impact and active in the swinging scene....then Mr Douglas came along and broke every rule in the NSA book.
He spent 10 months getting to know me intimately. Persued me constantly on a daily basis almost to the point of obsession until he secured my affections, lied throughout about the extent of his swinging activities in order to appear more attractive to me, he wished to appear like an inexperienced newbie!! Played down his future swinging ambitions and fixed up 3 dates with me in advance...He showed and told me how much he liked me, confided all his personal life to me, involved me in it like a boyfriend would, even sent a gift to my ! We were inseperable, he made me his priority and was in very close contact...Responded immediately...Always there for me when I needed him...my loneliness disappeared...We talked constantly for hours and hours on end into the night about every subject under the sun...emotionally and intellectually highly compatible. It was evident that we were well matched and liked each other a lot!
As he said:
"I do not look at anyone with no where near as much affection as I do you"
"I think you are getting the hint...not only to see us potentially naked and have my evil way with u but also that u are my very very dear adorable personal friend...I know, I know how do you combine friendship and assuming the horizontal and naked position and not feel awkward...I dont know...thats what makes you so special...I feel no such awkwardness with you......."
Strange ideas from a seasoned swinger!!! As he turned out to be...who fucks so many wives and their men without any problems!! What is it with bisexual black guys that they cant come out and say it. Hardly the inexperienced young (he pretended to be 30 when hes actually 39) tentative highly selective swinger he portrayed and described himself as!!!!!!!!!!!!
He unceremoniously dumped me on a flimsy pretext on the last of our prearranged dates sweeping away 9 months of close friendship as irrelevant when I didnt exactly fit neatly into his swinging intentions!
The futility of engaging someones affections over so many months on a NSA sex site in order to have sex with them strikes me as totally unnecessary and perplexes me...Perhaps theres a type of callous pleasure derived from engaging a persons affections and enacting a deception on a trusting person...I learned he had done this before...
Its been very hard to overcome the impact of emotional involvement he solicited from me..We genuinely had an excellent personal match that was undeniable and not faked...the closer the match the harder to banish the feelings I think. I still find it hard after 6 months to read testimonials about the sex that I experienced with him ...when you know exactly how that felt...theres a sickening effect...
I have used my blog writing to work through much of the backlash Ive been left with. My writing took off at that time when I needed to express and divert my passions...Its been a wonderful positive experience for me and I shall take my blogs away as a reminder of my swinging life when I return to vanilla land...
Additionally I have used my swinging activities to offset and banish the feelings that lingered and afflicted me. I really have done everything to rid myself of them and to protect and cleanse myself. I am now even more vigilant in keeping my emotions under wraps.
Mr Douglas broke all the rules and then skipped off blamelessly into swinging heaven...
I am glad to say the vast majority of men here are honest about their intentions and do actually subscribe to the NSA ethos...
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Its Better to Give than to Receive...
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Posted:Mar 9, 2009 4:16 am
Last Updated:Mar 23, 2009 1:41 am
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Thanks S for a great title...yes you are right its almost biblical!! and the inspiration for the blog...a subject close to both our hearts..
It has been said that its an act of selfishness and meanness for men not to give oral to women...and belies a male attitude towards women of not wishing to give real pleasure and a coldness and lack of sensual connection in themselves...and the person who said that considers it pointless actually having sex without giving oral...a waste of time...he uses his visualisation of oral with a woman as his indicator of true desire...
I tend to agree to some extent...and I see it as an imbalance in the sex...I used to be reconciled to the 'I suck his cock at length and then the man has a quick dive down to show willing and then penetrative sex occurs scenario' as believe it or not that covers MOST mens sexual style but something is definitely missing and right at the start of the sexual encounter it occurs...when I realise theres a lack of sensual foreplay and then no oral for me I am aware of the type of sex im going to have with that man...and that usually means he doesnt know how to give oral and doesnt know how to use his fingers gently and purposefully with results! Its like an instant barrier, a restriction on pleasure and puts the sexual encounter into the possibly banale but functional category...
Dont get me wrong knowing how to use ones cock is important in its own right...enjoying bjs and cumming from receiving oral is important...talking dirty is an invaluable skill but using ones tongue and fingers is the icing on the cake! And an absence of foreplay inexcusable...
I understand now from my oral lovers who cant get enough of my sweet-tasting pussy that when they move down a womans body and reach the tummy button area if they get a whiff of an odour they dont like...could be unwashed pussy or just overly perfumed or just a natural body smell they dont like..even as firm oral enthusiasts they make a U turn and dont return there!!
And probably dont return to the woman sexually either unfortunately as its been blown for them...So its all a matter of personal and acquired taste really!
When a man is in tongue touch with the female sexual responses between her legs on her clit he is fully locked in to her sex...and follows her journey of sexual excitement and increasing need...I look down at my sexual partners face buried in my pussy and those sexy soft brown blissfully happy eyes look up at me and i feel nurturing (a flashback to giving birth) and in my full giving sexuality as a woman! I gently stroke his bald black head and relish the hours of pleasure...
If there are any physically attractive fit bisexual women reading this who know how to give oral and finger a woman to the point of orgasm and make a woman squirt then please get in touch as I need to learn...Ideally you would wish to share the experience with a well endowed black man and me!!
Almost came just writing that! What a wonderful thought!!!!!!!
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