TGIF!!!
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Posted:Sep 3, 2010 8:43 pm
Last Updated:Sep 19, 2010 11:49 am
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What a week it's been. I had many memorable events happen this week. Someone from my past came back into my life and someone else won't leave me be. Last night was the best though, my Gamecocks kicked ass!
I try not to be a cynical person, but in my line of work I see the worst in people. Those they've victimized come to me during their darkest hour and ask if I can help them. I wish I could help them all, but some I simply can't do enough for. It boggles my mind just how cruel people can be to one another. At the end of the day, my problems seem petty in comparison to the drama I witness every day.
I've been sick all week and I feel like shit. I've had a very stressful week at work and now it is being complicated by childish bullshit from a "friend". Someone I was once close to has gotten kinda weird and clingy on me. When I asked for some space they didn't accept the rejection very well and became bitter towards me. Whatever. Another that I'm very fond of has a multitude of women at his disposal and I'm finding it difficult to know if I stand apart from the rest. I won't chase you my dear... not again. I did that once and you disappeared; this time you must come to me. I am here...I never went away. You know my heart, what you choose to do with it is up to you. When you accept it, you will know what it feels like to be whole. I miss you.
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease
GO GAMECOCKS!!!
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What a difference a day makes...
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Posted:Aug 29, 2010 10:37 am
Last Updated:Sep 19, 2010 11:49 am
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Today I find a renewed sense of self. When I awoke this morning everything was different. The sky was bluer, the grass was greener and my face had a glow about it.
Thank you for never giving up on me.
Time goes by so fast, people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you.
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What a year it's been...
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Posted:Aug 14, 2010 11:40 pm
Last Updated:Feb 6, 2011 7:06 pm
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My got his learners permit, so I've been pressing that imaginary brake pedal on the passenger side floorboard as well as hanging on till my knuckles turn white. Getting him through his freshman year of High School was quite a challenge, but mission accomplished. He is looking forward to starting school this week, not because of the academics, but because it's put a serious cramp in his social life. He gets his restricted license this month so I'm shopping for a "scratch & dent" truck that he can drive to school. In the last year, he has gone through so many physical changes that I've seen him grow from a boy to a man. This time last year, he was 5'7" 140lbs. Now he is 5'11" 190lbs and wears a size 12 shoe. I can't keep him in clothes that fit and the fridge never has enough food in it.
My graduated from High School (with honors) in June and begins college next week. She is pursuing her nursing degree. She is such a great ; has a good head on her shoulders and she's driven and spirited (just like her mom). Two weeks after graduation she had her tonsils removed...poor baby, she had a really rough time. She turned 18 last month and she's thrilled to be "of age", but also scared to death to be headed out into the real world. As long as she still needs me, I'll be there and even when she doesn't need me anymore... I'll still be there.
I've been content to just be a mom (a full time job) and I usually find the trials and tribulations of motherhood tougher than any other challenge in my life. They don't come with an instruction manual and I'm usually parenting by the seat of my pants.
As for me, I reached a milestone this week. I have been on Discreet Gay Dating for a year now...and may I say, WHAT A YEAR IT'S BEEN!! Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined the people I'd meet, the friends I would make, or the experiences that I'd learn from. I feel I've grown as a person in so many ways. In this past year I also turned 50, another major milestone. Instead of dreading that birthday, I embraced it. I am so much wiser at 50 than I ever thought I was at 30. Here I am 20 years later with 2 beautiful , a failed marriage and a wealth of knowledge. I know who I am, where I'm going and what I want out of life. I haven't really dated (in the conventional sense) since the divorce. I still remember how it affected my brother and me when we were , every time my mom had a date. Wondering if he would treat my mother well or be nice to us and how long he'd be around. I'm not faulting my mother, I know she was just doing what she felt was best for us and hoping she'd find someone special to help her raise her . I never wanted my to ask those questions of me. I have been a hands-on, proactive parent and have always put their needs before my own. Over the past couple of years I joined a couple of the more traditional dating sites, hoping to meet someone that I could connect with. I don't run in a large social circle and I'm over the bar scene. The internet seemed to be a likely avenue to weed through all the riff-raff and find my "someone". I met several nice guys, but there was no chemistry with any of them. I couldn't figure out what the problem was or what I was doing wrong. It dawned on me that those profiles didn't really address my sexual needs. My sexuality is just as much a part of me as all the other generic questions they ask. If I can't connect with someone on a mental and physical level, then the only thing left is friendship. I stumbled upon Discreet Gay Dating quite by accident while surfing the WWW. I thought "what the hell?" and the rest is history. Little did I know that the cycle of riff-raff was about to take on a whole new meaning. I've never seen so much bullshit in my entire life. I've been cyber-stalked, insulted and even been groped on the first meeting... a BIG NO-NO in my book. I've had over 42,000 views and more than a thousand emails during that time. In the beginning, it was overwhelming trying to sort the players from the married guys. Speaking of married guys; at first I thought that seemed to be a logical avenue for me. I wasn't ready to bring men around my and the single guys demanded too much of my time. Married guys will give me a few hours of their time, all while checking their phone to see if the wife was looking for them. Secret codes and precision schedules seem to be typical. It sucks and I'm sick of it. As I've traveled down this path, I've come to the realization that I am ready to begin a new chapter in my life. I'm tired of settling for less than I deserve.
In closing out this segment of Random Thoughts, I'd just like to say to all those guys I've had to block... Grow up and treat women with respect. Just because your last bimbo liked to be humiliated and spanked, doesn't mean that all women do. As for all you married guys out there... It's been real, but if you want to be with me, come see me when your divorce is final. And last, but not least... To all the young guys out there that treated me like a queen... your Momma raised you well.
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Whispers
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Posted:Feb 18, 2010 7:43 pm
Last Updated:Sep 1, 2010 8:34 pm
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For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.
~~~Judy Garland
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Enlightened
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Posted:Feb 17, 2010 2:18 pm
Last Updated:Sep 1, 2010 8:34 pm
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"A single moment of understanding can flood a whole life with meaning"
~~~Unknown
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Lover's day...
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Posted:Feb 14, 2010 10:18 am
Last Updated:Sep 1, 2010 8:34 pm
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“We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love.”
~~~~~~Tom Robbins
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Todays quote...
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Posted:Feb 13, 2010 1:01 pm
Last Updated:Aug 29, 2010 10:20 am
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Sometimes it's a form of love just to talk to somebody that you have nothing in common with and still be fascinated by their presence.
David Byrne
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